Lana feels

Picture this, we were both buck naked, banging on the bathroom door. Lyrics from some absolutely stupid rap song that's been stuck in my head all weekend. To the GREAT amusement of my girlfriend, seeing as how that's how we spent a good amount of my birthday party as well. Gods I'd missed her. But I hadn't missed this place, or how she acts when we're around people. Thing is, my darlin' girl isn't bi. She's flat-out gay. But she goes through such a ridiculous charade when there's other people around, even people who are supposed to be our good friends. I mean, when it's just the two of us, we can't keep our hands to ourselves. But when there's other people around, I have to stay a certain distance away or they might think something's wierd and we can't play around cause it's too close to flirting and just grrr! It had been getting better by the end of the summer, but this week it's been insane. And it's completely ridiculous, because she's so paranoid about getting caught or whatever that she won't let me near her when there's people, but she's not in the least above dragging me into my room or the bathroom or that little bathroom downstairs, or anywhere else she thinks nobody will be for a while, and making me scream. And letting me cause make her scream. And then we go back upstairs, I can still fucking taste her, and she won't let me near her again. But then we made sure there was a shortage of beds and she came and slept in my room. In my bed, at that, though the rest of them didn't know that part. mmm, I did miss that girl. And then we spent Friday night and Saturday morning with just each other cause it was our 6 month anniverary of having a top-secret relationship. Oy. But it's been fun.