Lana feels

I don't know why I come to these things. Casino night, school dances, the places where the pretty little children get up and grind themselves together and where I watch from the sides wishing so badly that I could. Feeling so different from all of them. So shy. So young and scared and longing. Wanting. But so different. So I watch from the arm of the couch, watch Morea and Sammie grind, watch Meg be hot, watch the girls. There's nothing appealing to me in the guys dancing but the girls are gorgeous. Making me even more different from the rest of them. I can't even lust right.